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MIRACULOUS FAILURE... Its a True MIRACLE that I FAILED at SUICIDE... It has changed me for the better and I am so thankful.

I am a survivor of a very serious suicide attempt that I was completely unaware I was headed toward or doing. It was the result of depression caused by inability to cope with a lifetime of wrongs, combined with a completely ridiculous medication regimen. The doctors called it medication induced psychosis, this caused bizarre behavior, loss of memory of alot of 2016 and the attempt. I was hospitalized in ICU for 3 weeks and in physical rehab for 5 weeks, during the hospitalization I was unconscious most of the time, everything I had was failing, on dialysis, a ventilator and an unreal amount of IV drips. My family and friends were asked to say goodbye to me several times. Each time I quickly returned to good vital signs, shocking the medical professionals. There were 7 episodes of near death during my hospitalization, each time with the same unexplainable, almost immediate recovery. The doctors all told me when I woke up, there was no medical explanation for my survival, that it had to be a God Thing, and I believe that. I am recovering, no longer on dialysis, getting stronger every day. All of my organs are working and my mind is clear, its like I'm a whole new person.

I believe these posts are not just for depressed or suicidal people. They are for any type of issue like addictions of all kinds, obsessions, anything that controls your life, This blog is also for the loved ones who are affected or involved.

I don't know why God chose to save me, but it is obvious to me and those who love me that he did, multiple times. My wish is that if someone else can be saved because of my experience, it is worth it.